Fancy Meeting You Here
So, that was quite a hiatus, eh?
Maybe sometime I'll fill in the gap, but for now I'm just going to deal with the present day. I guess, technically, I'll be dealing with yesterday since it's a shade past midnight here in the plains states.
I was thinking earlier about how this fall has differed from the past several. To recap: Fall 2003, my grandfather died, senior year of college. Life plan uncertainty. Fall 2004, my mom died. Fall 2005, still learning to deal with Fall 2004. Fall 2006, my grandmother died and I moved to Austin to start grad school. I got on the bus every morning, cried all the way to campus, went about my business, got back on the bus, cried all the way home. For weeks. It was absolutely terrible. I seriously thought I was having some sort of breakdown. Fall 2007, year two of grad school begins. No major changes, though I moved into a new place. Lots of fall-related crying, however, and an epic semester of not sleeping. For days at a time. It was ugly. Fall 2008, trying to finish (start) my thesis and graduate. Started teaching at OC on Monday nights. Being the instructor of record ≠ to being the TA. More challenges, sometimes more fun, a lot more work. Dad got remarried. Good thing, but lots of change. Family issues, none of them fun.
Enter Fall 2009. This is, in all seriousness, the first fall in years that I haven't felt like I was totally overwhelmed by the emotional flood that used to begin somewhere around my birthday and build steadily through Christmas. Basically, Falls 2003-2008 were these epic, awful downhill slides into really unpleasant emotional territory. Fall 2009, though, hasn't been like that. There have been sad days, but none of the "I can't breathe. What happened to my life?" moments of years past. I enjoy my job. I love teaching, I like the shooting I'm doing. I'm still not sure what I'm doing with my life, but mostly I've accepted that what I'm doing with it is living it. And that's pretty good. I feel hopeful that a really bleak period of time has ended and things are looking up.
In other news, I've decided to start a running list of things I have to say at work that just never come out in the right order.
1. Navy Alpha Delta One Zero. Somehow this string (written VVAD10) came out "Navy Alpha Bravo Lima". Not even close.
2. November Four Five One Alpha Zulu. I've decided sometimes it's best to just commit and not overthink it.
3. Anything ending in Romeo Romeo. Always comes out Romeroromr.
There will be more, since I invariably, at some point during every run, fail to sound like the native English speaker that I am.
Maybe sometime I'll fill in the gap, but for now I'm just going to deal with the present day. I guess, technically, I'll be dealing with yesterday since it's a shade past midnight here in the plains states.
I was thinking earlier about how this fall has differed from the past several. To recap: Fall 2003, my grandfather died, senior year of college. Life plan uncertainty. Fall 2004, my mom died. Fall 2005, still learning to deal with Fall 2004. Fall 2006, my grandmother died and I moved to Austin to start grad school. I got on the bus every morning, cried all the way to campus, went about my business, got back on the bus, cried all the way home. For weeks. It was absolutely terrible. I seriously thought I was having some sort of breakdown. Fall 2007, year two of grad school begins. No major changes, though I moved into a new place. Lots of fall-related crying, however, and an epic semester of not sleeping. For days at a time. It was ugly. Fall 2008, trying to finish (start) my thesis and graduate. Started teaching at OC on Monday nights. Being the instructor of record ≠ to being the TA. More challenges, sometimes more fun, a lot more work. Dad got remarried. Good thing, but lots of change. Family issues, none of them fun.
Enter Fall 2009. This is, in all seriousness, the first fall in years that I haven't felt like I was totally overwhelmed by the emotional flood that used to begin somewhere around my birthday and build steadily through Christmas. Basically, Falls 2003-2008 were these epic, awful downhill slides into really unpleasant emotional territory. Fall 2009, though, hasn't been like that. There have been sad days, but none of the "I can't breathe. What happened to my life?" moments of years past. I enjoy my job. I love teaching, I like the shooting I'm doing. I'm still not sure what I'm doing with my life, but mostly I've accepted that what I'm doing with it is living it. And that's pretty good. I feel hopeful that a really bleak period of time has ended and things are looking up.
In other news, I've decided to start a running list of things I have to say at work that just never come out in the right order.
1. Navy Alpha Delta One Zero. Somehow this string (written VVAD10) came out "Navy Alpha Bravo Lima". Not even close.
2. November Four Five One Alpha Zulu. I've decided sometimes it's best to just commit and not overthink it.
3. Anything ending in Romeo Romeo. Always comes out Romeroromr.
There will be more, since I invariably, at some point during every run, fail to sound like the native English speaker that I am.
posted by Audrey at 10:00 PM
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